Waiting to relax!

Hello world,

I'm just waiting to relax now. I wonder when the point of relaxation will arrive. When I've had an ultra sound? When I can feel daily movements? When I'm holding a baby in my arms? Who knows really? Do mummas ever really relax anyway?

But I'm looking to relax a little more than I currently am so I'm going to have an early ultrasound at 7 weeks. When I miscarried, the lovely staff at the Early Pregnancy Assessment Clinic suggested an early ultrasound to help put my mind at ease next time around and even said I could call them and do it there if I wanted to. So I will.

I had a tiny bit of spotting last night, probably nothing to be concerned about but still enough to make me feel quite nervous. I'm 6 weeks, I was 5 weeks when the long drawn out miscarriage happened last time so that feels like an achievement to make it past 5 weeks and honestly, I feel pregnant. I feel nauseous and super tired, my breasts are still really sore and they look different (one of the first things I noticed when I was pregnant with Piper!). So next week we will get to see our little baby hopefully and I will feel more relaxed :-D

jodi x

2 pink lines

Hello world,

Yep, you read it here first! 2 pink lines, not even little pink lines, strong pink lines!

It feels too early to celebrate of course, in fact I'm partly terrified! My brains full of ranting and raving thoughts that are really scaring the bejesus out of me. The big negative ones are;

• Low day 21 results, does that mean I'll lose the baby? 
• Its due date is 14th March 2014, miscarried babies due date was 15th of March 2013; that doesnt seem like a good sign to me! (Piper was due 5th March 2011 - I seem to have a pretty slim fertile window there!)

Of course then there is the other major one:

• We're going to have a baby!!!!!!

So it was a Wednesday morning, my period was 5 days late and I had a pregnancy test laying around (name me a TTC woman who doesn't!?) so I took it, mainly because I thought 'Once I see its negative, then I can get the hope out of my head and just deal with the waiting.' but a miracle happened and 2 strong lines appeared, and quickly. I went and got back in bed in shock and called out to hubby who was already up and about. He came in, I said nothing and held it up, he almost burst with excitement. Wow. This is the moment we've been working towards!

I've called up my specialist to order blood tests, I don't want to let my mind get away with me just yet and if there is a baby in there its still very early days and a lot can change...

jodi x